how is it already october, the semester halfway behind us, me almost nineteen?
i've been home twice and already more people have visited me than all last year.
i love it.
it still hurts to leave though. still, i find it harder to be left than to do the leaving. the train gets me where i need to go and gets me back how i need to be in each place.
fall semester always flies. home this coming friday, plans this weekend. then halloween. then my birthday. then ryan's. the booksale, then thanksgiving. december, just like that. three weeks, less if my finals are scheduled well, and i'm back home for a month. its spring semester that drags.

this year is already so much better than last. i feel more like me here, and at home and with everyone.
i've been going to way more shows, just like i said i would last year. psychology looks like a dead end for me now, but i have a plan and i know that everything will work out like everything else has been.
i am turning over a new leaf and i love it. i love fall and i love this semester.

i am nearly done with my first semester of college.
but more importantly, as of 1:40 this afternoon i am DONE WITH PHILOSOPHY.
XDDDD

i am beyond excited. the final went pretty well. i only missed one on the online portion and the written final went about as well as the last midterm that i somehow pulled an A on. so let's hope for another A. [speaking of....i've been getting a lot of A's. its been really great, especially since i was freaking out in august, thinking that i would fail every class/wasn't cut out for college. it got so bad i couldn't sleep some nights. ugh.] it did piss me off that the teacher didn't even show up for the final, he just sent his TA's. but i got over it because a. i don't like the teacher. and b. the TA's are hot. :D

now i don't have anything to do except study for my last final [anthropology], sell back my textbooks, and pack.
i leave wednesday some time before lunch.

i haven't done much in december because i didn't buy a bus pass.
highlights:
     i went shopping with my maam at horton plaza on saturday. i think horton is even better than south coast plaza because it has tons of affordable stores that i actually like to shop in. plus it has the biggest forever twenty-one of my LIFE.
     friday i went to sea world with emily and abby. i love walruses, narwhals, beluga whales, and sharks. i could live in the shark encounter. i love it there so much. it's toasty and there's water noises and sharkies. i would stop the moving walkway and just lie on my back and watch sharks all day.
     that night, after sea world, abby dropped me and emily off at SOMA where we waited in line with hordes of seventh-grade scene whores for the 3OH3! concert. i had to restrain my compulsion to yell 'FUCKIN' SKANKS.' i did. inside, emily and i snagged some bench seats along the wall by the front of the stage- we had no desire to be smother/stomped/moshed to death in the pit. they ended up being the best seats ever. no one got too close to us because we were close to a pole and when we wanted to, we could stand up and rock out four feet higher than everyone else. the first band....pirate something or other was okay. I really like the two-man band 'chain gang of 1974' that came on next. their cd was free on myspace. sweeeeeeeet. the third band, innerpartysystem, was awesome. they had this crazy lightshow and so much BASS. then 3OH3! came on. THEY WERE SO GREAT. i freaked out. the crowd freaked out. intenssssssssse. the whole crowd was jumping- it was 2000+ people in one room all rocking out. if you haven't been to a standing-room only rock concert, you're missing out. there's this INTENSE energy that the band starts and the crowd feeds on it and then off each other and then the band gets crazier...... its amazing. it was definitely the best concert energy-wise that i've been to. and every band had the INTENSE BASS that vibrates in your fucking soul and changes your heartbeat and just rocks. so overall, a fucking great night.

that's pretty much all i've done since thanksgiving besides the occasional yogurtland or in-and-out visit.
i can't wait to come home.